what is wrong with me that no man wants to be with me and that i’m left alone……………..oh yeah im an ugly, hairless, freak….i forgot for a brief moment that clearly a woman who has no hair and who is ugly just isnt worth the time of any man.   i do understand, but i do deep down and this feeling is buried…..that they is someone for everyone, no matter how bad it might seem, there is someone out there for everyone.   well i’m not feeling it,  it’s a crock of shit.  the fairytale that Hollywood has been pushing all these years, well it doesnt exsist.  people like me dont get that happy end to life.  we dont get that man who wants to be with us.  well maybe some or even most Alopecia suffers get their happy ending…..i havent and i’m guessing never will. 

maybe i have come to terms with never finding a man who will accept me for who i am.  maybe i accept that no man will ever want me long term for what i look like. 

i guess hair is a big thing…since i have no man who will see me as a woman he wants…clearly hair means everything.

i just dont get it…..really am i that ugly?????

Alex Clare - Too Close (by AlexClareVEVO)

I started out at 198lbs, this was September 2011 and surrently as of today May 2012 i am now 153lbs………………still have some way to go but im getting there.  I now can see that i can do it.  if i can then anyone of you out there just thinking maybe i could or saying to yourself, ‘oh i’ll start tomorrow or next week’…..stop with the excuses and take the journey and make a difference in your life.

Candle Light

Emeli Sandé - Daddy ft. Naughty Boy (by EmeliSandeVEVO)

Nas - The Don (Explicit) (by NasVEVO)

@ItsThingsInLife: Never underestimate the pain of a person, because in all honesty, everyone is struggling. Some people are better at hiding it than others.